My OFFICIAL thread
Thread Topic: My OFFICIAL thread
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*checks whos thread this is*
oh helle.
and goodbye cause i have to go. -
*hello
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*hello
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Just, "wow, does sound awesome! I'm gunna have to read that when it comes out!" does that sound like I uh, was saying that in a way that sounds sincere? nah. I could pull out more examples, but I won't.
oh, okay, good, but still it stands, I've had it with that s---.
But yeah, it was pretty good. That's when I got the awesome laptop that I'm typing on. Although 5 days later was total hell. and then, the next day was that that Alli joined, and it was that day or the next that we met and started talking, and about a month later, we were together...*sigh* I miss her so much...
Hey.
ikr? -
Oh, bye then :-I
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So you are telling me that you have learned to be deceptive... well, it's a good thing you admitted it, because there was no way I was going to come out and tell you that I realize that most of the things you say are insincere.
I am actually sorry...
cool, erm, three weeks before Christmas came for me my dad snapped be use he had had it with me over some things and broke my other tablet by smashing it on the road.... but then on Christmas I got this... I think you got some of your dates mixed around, we officially met on December fifth, and Ali didn't join until about amonth after that, and then on March twenty third, (I believe risk the approximate date) you told me that she liked you and then later that day I attempted to leave and caused and hell load of drama... you guys started dating somewhere in that time... but I remember you being really depressed though February and March... -
Ack! I pressed submit too soon..
But yeah... I miss her too.. I promise I will try my hardest to bring her back... -
I've been most sincere with you these last few months as I've ever been with anyone except Alli herself Savannah! *pulls hair in fury* UGH! What do I need to f---ing do t-*walks out and slams door*
*walks back in 3 hours later* Anyf---ingway, no, I don't have my dates mixed up, she joined on New years day, and new years eve was absolutely bloody hell for me. And exactly what I needed came on the very next day...and yeah I was depressed, but Alli and I helped each other up, because she was too. I just wish I could've spent more time with her, and I wish I would've spent the time I had with her better...
You can't bring her back. Not without ending all of this. I'm lucky Alli's mom didn't report me... -
My heart hurts, and no cure...
listening to a remix of Hero... -
You call it sincere to tell me that I am beautiful, or that my idiotic attempt at writing songs was good, or that I can play the piano well! You flipping murdere me inside when you tell me that I can do s--- because then I have too look at myself in the mirror and tell myself that people pity me so much that they have to lie- and over eggaterate a lie just to try to make me feel better. Don't you get that I hate it when people aren't honest with me?! I hate if with passion when people hide the truth to try to make me feel better. Now stop flipping out, it isn't your fault, it is mine. You did nothing wrong..
Alex, Alex no..... just... I, I can't do this... I can't help... I can't take back time, nobody can... but I...
WHY THE HELL WOULD SHE REPORT YOU? -
I remember...I remember someone who was, a relatively...normal...friend, but they were on a quiz site called GoToQuiz.com. They uh...They were a great friend all along, but one day, the whole thing just started going downhill...eventually, all we ever did anymore was argue over emotions...I eventually got tired of arguing, and since they had been trying to leave the site for a long time, but was held back by me, I left for awhile...a year and a half, to be exact. By that time, I missed them and everyone else I knew at that site very dearly, but they were all gone. The site was practically dead, and all of the remaining users had been there since months after my last day, none earlier. I remembered all of the great times we had, and...I just wish I could go back in time...the people that I always talked to, even the one that was gone by the time I left, I missed them greatly, but all of those people were gone. I looked through some of their last posts...they had long accepted the fact I was gone. Their lives or views of the world weren't altered at all by me, nor did it seem that in their last days did they even care I was gone...I come back now to a completely dead site, not one post since 516 days ago...All the people I once knew, all the people that I cared and missed so deeply about, all gone, and probably don't even remember my existence...I look at my old account called alex3000, and I see that my last words, "I must not matter, so goodbye, then" have completely come true, and I now am the last of a desolate place once bustling. I used to love this place, but now that everyone that ever really mattered is long gone, I must now fade into the black, yet again, and find yet another refuge to rest my tired feet upon and take hold, and this time, I shall know to appreciate my time with those I take for granted, and those I love. Listen, and you might hear my ghostly voice trying to reach you, but until the day I pass, I shall remember all i knew, no matter whether I changed them or they cared, or not.
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So you don't care then ! Alright!
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*sigh* you know nothing of how this whole thing is.... it could never happen like that. Alex, this morning... I was actually going over to Shari's (that youth leader i told yoy about esrlier todsy) house to get her to help me finally tie the final knots and leave this place behind.... I was so ready to finally pull over and leave... I want even going to tell you I was going to leave... but then... then I told myself that even though she has been helping me with this for months, it would be foolish and filled with drama if I went over and asked her to help me get over a stupid site... I wish I would have gone over now... if I did then you could just be happy here and you would never even consider leaving ... I can't here, not like this, nothe right now, but I can't lesve... and unfortunately, everything else in my life has crashed burned and there is only one way to get it back and I don't want or do that... if you left, then you would be taking my last limb and I will die. I am not afraid to give up everything to save you though, I have drilled the idea that thigh I will fight for what's right and help the world survive until it kills me... so dit leave in your emotions, if anything, leave in a clear mindset...
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*screams at you* don't leave you coward! Stay here right now! Can't you see that I have given up just about everything to make you happy?! Do they leave right now! Please, stay...
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