IT MUST BE DONE
Thread Topic: IT MUST BE DONE
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Hiiii
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i dont really expect anyone to talk to me. Im boring. I accept that. I wish I had a MtF trans friend in real life. But all I see are FtM trans people everywhere who want nothing to do with me. It really hurts, you know. And ive just begun trying to appear nicer when walking to places and stuff. But I dont know if it helps. I want people to accept me for who im trying to be, not just as i look now. But that will never happen soon. No one around me is like me. They dont understand. Not that they have it super easy though. Seth is a great example of the struggles a FtM trans goes through. But the people at my school? their parents dont f---ing care what they wear. But mine do and it sucks. I want to wear girly stuff and look attractive for one in my life. I want to look pretty. I just want acceptance.
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Oh. Hey seth .3. I thought you were going to sleep so I vented to myself.
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You can always vent. ^^ Don't worry. One day, you'll be the prettiest girl and everyone will recognize it. I mean, you're already the prettiest girl, so you're halfway there.
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*tackles to floor and pins to floor*
Fratello you are a beautiful child *lays on you* I luh you. -
You should add me on 3DS, now that I've got internet on it.Just saying. xD -
Heh, thank you Seth. You're such a lovable hunkadunk. X)
But still. I feel alone in this world sometimes. And I hate feeling alone. Not alone frie d wise. I have lots of friends who i'm thankful for. But all of them find me odd and I know it. I want to be able to talk to someone like me who is MtF. i want that one buddy to ask tips on how to do stuff and borrow things from. I hate being alone. But everyone just thinks of me as freaky and calls me weird behind my back. Its why i started looking all hostile. I didnt want to be made fun of anymore, called gay or be called a loser. Because it hurt me inside. When I wore that wig to school, some kids were making fun of me behind me. I could hear them and they knew it. I could tell. I wanted to punch their f---ing fugly faces so bad, but I went on with my day. Im better than them. Id keep telling myself that and it helps. You can be pretty too. Not everyone will judge you forever. Its not your fault your like this. If it wasnt for her, you wouldnt know about this stuff.
I just want a friend who I can touch that understands me. -
I know exactly how you feel. I'm so sorry.
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so many people
hi to you all
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Its okay seth. Because you make it all go away. All the sadness. All the loneliness. You help make me feel... not alone.
Anyways, I recently realized im not going to be taken seriously in this world if i dont get my s--- together. I started shaving my body, getting rid of all that man hair on me. I started using acne ointment to get rid of all that ugly acne on my face. Ive tried smiling, or at least not looking mad as often. Hell even my grades are improving. But I can only do so much in this house. -
that killed me lol
It's good that you're trying. I'm proud of you. -
Lol how? X)
Thanks. But it's still hard. Im trying to get acceptance from the only place i know i might, aka gtq, but since i mention hair that grows down below people get grossed out and miss the point. Drew goes on and just basically acts kinda like a dick even though I never said he had to be in the thread, and heph was pretty nice. But basically, adter a lot of hard work today, it was really just a laugh in the face saying "Lol your trying your best? We dont give a s--- thats gross hah"
Sometimes, evdn though I seem happy, i urge for someone to come up to me and let me hug them and rest on them. But none of my friends let medo that because theyre almost all guys and the few girls who are my friendssre kinda weirded out. -
so mushy
killed me dead
I understand what you feel so much that it hurts me that you feel that. Really though, you should be yourself without worrying so much about other people. I know, I know, easier said than done. But hey; if you can just make it a few more years, you'll be free. -
Ur ded nao
Thank you. Lol when I didnt care about what other people thought of me I was constantly a mess XD -
Yep.
Well, people are going to judge you no matter what. So you should just do you and make yourself happy. As long as you aren't hurting other people. -
y u so ded
*cuddles* Tbh its sad how much you help me and how little im able to do in return XD
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