My anorexia story.
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Thread Topic: My anorexia story.
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I just wanted to be skinny, perhaps like a super model. Beautiful clear skin, perfect stomach. I wanted to be that, I wanted to be exactly like that. From the moment I laid eyes on a fashion show, my glance was always on their flat stomachs.. But I never thought it'd become an obsession, I never thought I'd ever be so unhealthy, so underweight.
I remember the day like it was yesterday. I was 7, and I'd just came home from school. But something was different... My eyes didn't have the usual light they had in them and they were red and puffy. My nose was like Ruldoph's. I had hopped my little self off the bus, with my brother following me. He knew what was wrong.. He just didn't care. Earlier that day was horrible... 'Pig' 'Lardo' 'Fatty' echoed in my head as I entered the red brick house. I ran to my bedroom, and began to cry once again. My total perspective of myself had changed just because of some mean girls. I hated myself that instant, realizing how ugly and stupid and fat I was.
We had spaghetti for dinner, and I remembered stuffing my mouth full, secretly spitting in my napkin or taking 'bathroom breaks', where I'd go spit out my food. I knew this'd make me skinner, because I saw girls do it on TV. Unfortunately it failed.. Until I started doing it every day, all year long. I was about 40 pounds when I was 9-10, and I'd never eat a thing. Just spit it out in my napkin, spit it out in the toilet was a daily routine for me, I couldn't stop. I was about 45-50 pounds in 5th grade, being only 4'9". I thought I looked normal. I thought I was normal.. Unforunately I wasnt. At all. I was the school outcast. I was a freak to everyone (still am).
In 6th grade I found a new method; starving myself. The spitting didn't work around my step-dad. He'd notice everything.. So, I just started to simply say I'd eat too much for lunch and I'd be too full to eat supper. Now it started working about half the school year, until I realized.. I was about 50 or 60 pounds at a 4'11" frame. Everyone thought I looked horrible, people started commenting on me. As I said, I never thought I'd be so small, so fragile. I could barely sit up straight, and I was always cold.. No one cared. Until I came to GTQ.
From then, a lot of people helped me, gave me advice of how to eat. Soon enough, I could almost eat a full meal. I was 70 pounds.. And now I'm 84. (:
I haven't fully recovered from it.. But I'm progressing.. -
Awesome! I'm glad you came here.
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I hope you get better, why didn't you ever tell me this?!
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I'm glad you're getting better :D. Oh, and if you skip breakfast (like a lot of people), then you should start eating it. Breakfast is the most important meal of the day because it keeps your metabolism high.
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I can'ut believe the lengths girls will go to to be "super models". I'm glad you're getting better I.F.M.N. :)
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I was always against you starving yourself, I'm proud of you for stopping. Tori, dear, did you know you could die by not eating? You need food for nutrition & energy, without both of those, your body would have shutdown...forever. Please don't ever do that again, starvation is never the answer. You're just a kid, ok? And I've seen A LOT of pictures of you, you are very skinny. You didn't need to change at all! Ignore the people who judge you and make fun of you, because everyone has something laughable about them. No matter how hard it is to ignore people, because it hurts, you have to do it though. Even though I don't, because I tend to be a shy fly in school, you have to stand up for yourself. Sorry from this long speech, I just don't want you getting jelous and doing this again because it's risking your life. I care a lot about you, and your health is important, hunny.
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Supermodels tend to die earlier than the rest of us. The human body wasn't built to be that thin.
I'm glad you're getting better though. -
I guess no one really thinks themself perfect, thus why the cosmedics indestry is so big. I mean we got "fixes" for everything now. If you want high cheekbones, you can implants. If you want bigger.....um...... nevermind next thing! You want different nose, nose job. Which really applies to me. I have this huge goofy nose. But I love it, and it does it's job and holds up glasses! That's more then what most people's do for them. Besides, there's got to be something bad about me........
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The fact that you were 7 when you started doing that is terrible. I mean, every kid in the whole world is gonna be chubby when they're that young. You just grow out of it. In my opinion, you should never have started in the first place. But I'm glad you are recovering now. And being an outcast doesn't matter. I'm an outcast. And there are a whole bunch of other things that are horrible about me that I could list, but I'm not gonna, because then I would just be holding onto those things instead of trying to change them. :/
Be strong, Tori dear. And eat a lot more for awhile, til you get about 100 or 110. That's at the very bottom of needed weight for someone as old as you. -
I'm glad your getting better. I never had anorexia or anything but I used to be really skinny and I didn't realize it until I was 10 or 11. I knew I wasnt fat and that I was a little small for my age. But ya some people kept saying I was tiny even when I was 100 pounds. I just started eating more and now I'm normal weight for my age and height. I think you'll keep getting better as long as you don't starve yourself or anything like that
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People can be such b----es. I'm happy you're on your way to recovery. Even though I hardly know you. Stay strong. And I agree with AudreeForever, it is sad that you started at a young age.
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:/ It's the truth.
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