I don't want to like him but i do, stupid heart , stupid boy
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Thread Topic: I don't want to like him but i do, stupid heart , stupid boy
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It's been awhile since i came and told my story. Teresa i think you might remember it or not.
This is taking alot for me to say this and brings back memories i'd rather forget and move on but i cant move on if i cant face them. Most likely people will not even read this but it's for me.
Ok basically in February i started liking this guy Devon, first time i figure it i started laughing cause how ironic with what happened in the past *flashback* (this is also in my story) Last year i had another crush Josh, well he was playing table tennis at school during lunch so i decided to join in, my friends went for lunch, after lunch i went to my next period, where my friends were, one of the senoirs in 10th grade back then came in , she's my friend, and my friend asked her if she should tell me, they knew something i didn't, and she said yes *breathes* she told me "Devon thinks your hot" i was surprised but showed no emotion. Devon was also in 10th grade, i wasnt that surprised cause when he was in 9th grade every time i passed him he always stared with me with those eyes (those i'm crushing on you eyes but you don't know) but i thought noway he's a senior and then now heh thought I was hot, but the problem is he also liked this other girl who i disliked ,Sarah, and the girl liked him, so i wondered if he was trying to make her jealous or what, so my friends and i decided to ask anonymously over the internet whether he had a crush on me then one day *breathes* some anonymous guy(who i suspect is him) said why would he like an ugly girl like me. He totally agreed with the guy, and well i sort of was upset that they called me ugly so i logged in and told him, "If you are going to insult me do it to my face" i sent the same message to his bestfriend that if they were going to insult me do it to my face well they blocked me, but he did reply 'Sure you're ugly and i'd rather be in hell' i was upset so i told him 'Well hell is better than seeinG you everyday' the next day When i came to school with my dad i hoped i wouldn't bump into himm but he was there and umm i almost threw my bottle at him (plastic bottle), my friend stopped him, and i told my class what he said and
They Said he was a jerk (my whole class are my friends), and then my 10th grade friend tried to make him apologize to me but he wouldnt, my friends convinced me to say sorry to him for i don't know what and i did, and he never did, i was pissed i wasted my apology on him, and from then on whenever i was near him in confrences and church somebody would speak on forgiveness it freaked me out, but i did learn to forgive him, we were not on speaking terms and he never said my name at all from then on, then in October our school hosts this water fight, so we had it our friends were together, and the guys (including him) decided to throw gunpowder or firecrackers at our feet, some girls escaped by jumping into the pool but i cant swim, so for revenge i boUght like 2 packets of them and me and the girls teamed up so i threw them at him and his bestfriend,William, we were all so happy but after that we came back to not talking (keep in my mind i still had This crush on Josh), then this year my crush on Josh ended than God, cause after it ended he told me he liked my friend who had just came from America. So then Valentines Day came up i wore black skinny jeans, a white and black checkered shirt and a waistcoat i wore my friends really high red heels, but i was already tall naturally so it made me a giant, i promised my now 11th grade friend i'd give her chocoalte, i made chocoalte covered strawberries, but i went with my other friend to her homeroom to give her
The chocolate, and when i reached there
All the 11th grade guys were staring at me including Devon, Sarah was there also, he stared at me and said 'Hot, Jesus Christ!' backing away, Sarah glared at him and he shutup. Ever since my friends knew he liked me they teased me about
Him being my bf, Mrs.Devon etc..., they were just joking but then in late February a week before Spring Break i started liking him, i told my friend, we both fell on the floor laughing cause it was ridiculous i was suppose to hate his guts, but i didn't but i couldn't tell the others yet cause i knew they would make a big deal out of this, so the following Saturday
I told my other and i told her i would kill her if she made fun of me, then i told the rest at seperate times, and now everytime i pass him we stare at each other with those eyes, he's now the head prefect so he can punish me, he became mature. Now i am confused. Mind says no heart says yes. We just are two different people -
that was long now i have text thumbs from writing that
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wow uhh...........again dont look at me 0_o i have no idea
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i actually now know i like him
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oh good! that leaves me in the dark
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