Emotions f***ing suck
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Thread Topic: Emotions f***ing suck
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I really wish I didn't feel emotions for this friend. I seriously do not want to feel them. They suck ass. I like being friends. I do not want to feel a romantic emotional attachment. Hence, the emotional wall.
However, no matter how much I deny it, these emotions are there. Regrettably, but they are.
The problem is, I liked him years ago and told him about it back then. Things were awkward as hell between us after that until this year, when we finally became friends again like nothing ever happened.
So, I did and still do not want to go back down that path. I am more than happy just being friends with this kid. He is a great friend and whatnot.
Though, as previously mentioned, I can't f---ing help it, the emotions are there. And part of me thinks they may be there on his part as well. I mean, there are many things that I do not feel at this moment like going into right now, but from these things, it is QUITE easy to infer that there is at least SOMETHING going on. I mean, obvious, really. And no, that is not me just wanting it to be something, because I do not want it to be something.
AT the same time though... I do want it to be real, because I feel like we would be a really nice couple. But I love just being friends with the kid.
Neither of us are the type to enjoy emotion, so neither of us are touchy. And we'really just really good friends and I think cuddling in the midst of that wouldn't be so bad. But I don't really want anything to happen, at all. But, I really really do. So yeah.
I just needed to vent that out here. If anyone actually cared enough to read that, lit, ty.
Carry on with your regularly scheduled programming now, folks.
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