My girlfriend asked me why I wanted to stay with her.
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Thread Topic: My girlfriend asked me why I wanted to stay with her.
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All throughout my life, everyone I have ever been with has thrown their vaginas at me. I've only ever had sex with one person, but the opportunity has pretty well always been there. Until I met you. You are the first person I have ever met who hasn't pretty well dropped their panties and started masturbating on command. And I have no idea how to react to that.
On another note, I have also never once been the person to have someone else break up with them. I have always been the one doing the breaking up. Always. The person became slutty, or obsessive and I always just felt like I was being cornered in to staying with them. Until I met you. You don't do any of that, and as with the other one, I have no idea how to react to that.
I've done some very heartless and guiltless things in my life. I've lied to people to make them feel bad and feel like they deserved to be left.
I've promised people everything and then deny I ever knew them when I became bored.
I've stabbed friends in the backs and watched, unphased as they sat back down defeated.
I am not proud of the person I've been. I'm not proud of the person I was.
But there's a certain beauty to being caught with a curve ball. When you don't know what to do, you tend to reevaluate yourself.
When you and I first got together, you left because you didn't feel comfortable being with me.
I told you I would wait for you.
"I will wait for you."
That is something I never would have said before. Ever.
Up until then I would have cut my losses and moved on. Plain and simple.
But like I said, I didn't know how to react. I was so sure that you were going to be just like every one else that I literally didn't know how to react.
And instead of taking time and thinking it through and thinking of what THE OLD ME would say, I said "I will wait for you."
And in that one line I didn't know who I was anymore. But I did know that it felt right.
It felt right to wait. To give up what I wanted to appease someone else. To make sure that you were ready before I did anything.
Self gratification is great and all, but there's something different about knowing that you actually made something work with patience and hard work instead of having it just handed to you.
So I stayed. And I waited.
I promised you I would, and I intended to keep that promise.
And then finally you came back. And I was forced to evaluate things.
You wren't interested in sex at all. You were so shy that you cringed every time I said "I love you". You were something I had never seen before.
And of course that confused me even more.
And made me want to stay... even more.
Ting, the point is that I promised you a long time ago that I would always wait for you. That no matter what I would be there for you and I would only move at your pace.
And for once in my life I want to be that person. I really do with everything that I am.
So what if it sucks when you make me feel like a rapist?
So what if you can go from teasing to paranoid and militant in 5 seconds?
So what if we are probably the most incompatible people on the face of the planet?
We've figured out how to make it work this far...
We've had our rough patches and our bumps and bruises. We've had our disagreements and our fights. But at the end, we're still together. And I'll be damned if that ends because I couldn't handle being a better person.
So Ting, for what it's worth, that's why I'm with you. Because you are probably the best thing that has ever happened to me. -
(Well s---, I thought I had removed all the names from this, but I didn't.)
Please don't post in this thread. I'm going to bury it.
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