Do you think I love him? | Comments

And the worst part is, everyone but me seemed to know. And they asked about it and it was just terrible. I don't like that kind of attention. I just got a locker today, this is the first year my school has ever been opened, and there weren't enough lockers. But I got one of the newer and bigger lockers they just installed, and I didn't know how to open the lock, and I didn't have time to fiddle with it. So my friend put them in her locker until the end of the day, because I didn't like the attention I got when I carried it around. Two periods have never felt so long and awkward.

That's the thing, I don't either. . . I just moved here three and a half ish years ago, and I have known him three years, we were good friends by the last half of the first year, and really super good friends, like, best friends last year, he's been there for most of my victories, most of my fails, and almost all of my clutzy moments. . . Yea, my clutzy ness spreads chaos that far. . . So why would he choose this year to avoid me? And the thing is. . . My crushes last, at the very most, 6-9 months, but I've been crushing on him since we became friends.

Valentines day, today. I talked to him for the first time since November. Twice. We each said about 3 words in each conversation, but it was nice. But. . . This other guy that likes me, well, he's just my friend, but he like likes me, and its terrible. He gave me russel stover chocolates and a stuffed tiger. It was so awkward. But. . . I don't like him like that, I like the other guy. I don't think I can still be friends with him.

Invade you were wondering, there is a big time difference, for me, it's still the 14th, it's 11:22 pm and if you were wondering, I kept my stuff in a cupboard in my home room until I got my locker

Thanks, but. . . I'm so scared of rejection, what of he hates me?! I get hyper easy an often, but sometimes people think I'm annoying!