That means new guards, correct?
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Thread Topic: That means new guards, correct?
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Gideon: But now you're here and.. ;w;
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After: ;w; B-But..
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Iris: Daddy?
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Demitri: ..Where's Taylor? -
Gideon: Yeah! :D
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After: :D Yay!
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Iris: ..Wait, you're leaving? When? D':
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Demitri: Well.. T and I.. We came up with an idea.
T: ..It might be impossible, but.. We might.. Be able to "fix" Taylor. -
Gideon: o3o Well.. What do you wanna know?
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After: *off with her clothes~*
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Iris: .. *cries*
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Demitri: ..Baby. :I
T: *smacks him* No. *sigh* ..For a day, or a week, if someone can make Taylor a child, we can raise him to think slightly differently and take his memories of beating up girls. See if.. It works. .3. -
(=w= meanie)
Gideon: ...That's too much.. ;w;
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After: *nuzzles her cheek* If you end up liking me, you're free to the castle and surrounding area..
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Iris: *hiccups* ;3;
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T: ..Not it.
Dairi: *mutters* Not it..
Demitri: ...Um.. -
(meanie meanie
You owe me a cat)
Gideon: What abooooout... Half?
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After: *huffs* *undresses self*
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T: Works for me. Better get Kyle's permission, though. -
(Nnnnnn
How are you?)
Gideon: ..I STILL CAN'T. D':
Adrian: Gid. :I
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After: ..Move your hands.
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T: ..How.. How do you stand having children? -
(mmmmmmm
Feeling a bit upset, nothing too bad.)
Gideon: ..;3; Give me questions, and I can answer them.
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After: :I Avon~.
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T: ..I asked first. -
(Nothing, really, don't worry about it. I'm sorry I even said anything. ^^')
Gideon: At a park!
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After: Thank you~
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T: Nope. -
(Alright. Well, here's my list.
1. I think I'm starving myself without trying to.. I've skipped dinner three nights so far.
2. I feel bad because you're starting to not like me because I'm changing a little.
3. I didn't want to have to read through your posts to find out my flaws once again. I thought I had told you that I'm willing to sit down and listen to what you had to say to me. If I'm acting different, pleaseeee, tell me first! Okay?)
Gideon: Cute. *w* Playing with sand, a juice box beside her, the sun on her dress, with her blonde hair sticking up!
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After: Pleaseeeeee?
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T: eww no -
(But I can't.
Oh. Lovely.. I can't even tell when I'm different. I'm sorry.
Sorry for that, too. And I don't recall you saying that more than once, but hey, that's just me. I'm sorry for not paying attention.)
Gideon: What's your face for? o3o
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After: Only a little.
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T: NO -
(I can't they're too far and it's too late to eat some now.
How? How am I being an ass? All I did was apologize! If you read that as me being sarcastic, I was NOT being sarcastic. I was saying sorry for my mistakes!)
Gideon: *blush*
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After: Good~~
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T: Never. e~e -
(I will.
Please no. I'll stop arguing. I'll try to be myself again. Just.. Anything but that.)
Gideon: I love you too!
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After: *softly* Tell me if it hurts.
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T: *hiss* -
(HOW DARE YOU,,
I HAD THIS THING TYPED UP AND NOW IT'S WORTHLESS BECAUSE--
Alright I'll be serious now. I apologize for immature me up above.
But the thing is, I'm more than happy to listen to you. Even though angry you does scare me, I wouldn't be a very good girlfriend - or person in general- to say "f--- you I don't care if you're sorry this was horrid I hate you". You have problems that are superior compared to mine, so it's very understandable that you're mad and upset. I'll take all of the hits and make them into a pretty little teddy bear because anger eventually turns into happiness. Anyways, I care about you too, more than I've ever cared about my own family.
And I disagree with you. We've had a very steady relationship for a LONG time. That's including our friendship time. If we wait, by then I'll be an emo person who turned rebel and dyed my hair because other people don't listen to me like you do. Honestly, if I thought that I needed to wait, I wouldn't have been in such a hurry to ask you out. I think that if we just stay together- no matter how loose our string is- it'll be better than waiting.. Besides, impatient me would probably try to get some rapist's attention by accident in an attempt to feel better and then get raped and die. No joke. And as immature as I may be, I really need you.. I really really really love you. So much that I will cry for over five minutes rolling around on the floor for you. Did you know you're the first I've ever felt the desire to protect/cry over? You're too special for me to let go.
But if you think opposite I dunno. I can try to wait..
Immature me:
You are my precious
My precious
Mine) -
(Do you want to read what I wrote while crying and rolling
..Novemberrr. Wait until Novemberrrr. :U) -
(I was planning on recording me reading this in the morning but yay I dun need it no more;
I'm sorry. God, this is going to sound.. Pretty f---ing cheesy. Possibly dumb. I was going to record this last night, but it was 11:33 P.M. and my voice was f---ed up because I was crying. I'm probably a weakling for admitting it, but I sat there crying "I'M SORRY I'M SORRY" and "W-what did I do? What did I say? Why can't I fix it?" for about fifteen minutes or more. But that's not what this recording is about, so please don't stop listening if you decided to stop with me adding in an unnecessary detail.
I think I found out where I've changed. I'm still unsure, though. I think I'm being way more anti-social/rude-sounding. Is that right? Heh, don't tell me.. Look, I really didn't mean to change. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings, or ruin our relationship. I've been thinking about depressing thins and it's flooding into normal me. I'm so sorry.
And.. About the arguments.. I.. God, I'm so sorry. I don't know what's gotten into me. But I know that it's only my fault, not yours. I grew up learning how to scream and fight back. When we had the falling out, I was so.. Panicked. I was crying, too, but I was more or less afraid that we were going to break up because I'm such a s---. I was glad that we didn't then.
I see now I should still be alert.. I should still be scared. I didn't mean to do anything that you didn't like. Andi, you mean so much to me. When Audree broke up with me, I thought that I'd be alone. But then, I realized my feelings you, and my world.. It brightened. I thought, "Andi! Oh, god, I love my mother! Ehhhh, maybe that's bad.. Too bad we aren't really related! WHOO!" and then it turned to "I think I should ask her." Of course, I couldn't wait.. I just had to have you as my Valentine. So, I ended up asking you out earlier. And when you said yes, I knew that we'd have a strong bond.
So, for five months, we've been together. Although I see now why you don't like me, I thought we were good. When I didn't think I could do anything, you were there to tell me to go through with it. And you gave me my wings of hope. I thought I could do everything. All it took was one thought of you, and my day.. It was the best. My friends supported us, the users supported us, your friends did, and so it wasn't like I was upset because of being downgraded.
So anyways, I thought this relationship would last forever. The phone calls were lovely, that one video chat was fun, and of course our RPs were amazing. But it's a curse for my family to lose something good.
This past month, I've been slowly slipping into confusion. I had thoughts about my death, why I was alive, how things are supposed to work, why isn't Andi on? I've been clinging to the string that's had us tied together. I know my problems aren't nearly as bad as yours. Of course, that's why I'm guilty as f---. I put my petty problems on top of yours.
And then.. And then came the scares. I was suddenly too afraid to speak my mind. So it changed. I've been colder, I've been hurting myself in an emotional way, and I thought that I'd have to keep silent to make you happy. But when we had the fall out, I f---ed up. So, so bad. And then.. I made you think we're not compatible. I'm still confused as to how I managed to do this, but.. I'm so, so sorry. You mean the world to me. Whenever we played those "I love you" games were we fought to see who loved each other more, I always took the ending result very seriously. When we thought about kids, I was so happy. Elacie, Lucelle, Olan, and Grey.. I imagined our family. I thought about our feature. I couldn't wait for us to get engaged. But of course I said stuff that sounded mean, of course I had to let my feelings beat me, and now it's me being so so scared of loosing you. I thought we were compatable. Hell, I'm sure all couples have arguments, so I was almost upset when you said that. But you're right. If we can't stop arguing to the pout where one of us (or both of us) start crying, then it might be time for me to stop dreaming- or is it?
I've thought about it, and thought about it, and I've made my choice. I love you so much that I know I'll never recover from this break up. If you give me a chance- if you talk to me, if we sort things out, I'd be so happy. I know I don't deserve a chance, but.. I'm willing to prove my love for you. If you give me a chance to calm down and go back to myself- which is what I want to do to benefit everyone- I will gladly take it and do what I must to prove to you that I really do love you and the arguments were shirty accidents.
If you don't agree with any of this, and you're ready to let me go without a chance, I'll try to take it the best I can. I know we're a good team, and if I made a poll and asked around, others would agree that we are compatible and that arguments happen. But I also know that sometimes a lover causes stress and pain and makes someone worse than they had been. So..
..The choice is yours. You can choose to respond to all of this, you can choose to still say that you want to break up with me. I'll take my fate and leave GTQ. If you decide you want to continue to be with me, email me so we can discuss my flaws. I'll do my best to respond as I normally do and or did. If you can't decide, don't worry about it. I'll wait for your answer. Because I love you, and if the wait is long, I'll be happy for the extra minutes I have dreaming about our future. I love you, Andi, no.. Brandilynn. I love you.)
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