And I'm the stable one.
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Thread Topic: And I'm the stable one.
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I don't belong to a large or popular group, I'm not a nerd, I don't follow anything devotedly, and anime confuses me. I'm not a jock; I'm not good enough at any sports. I'm not too massively intellectual; mainly have a strong sense of common sense that transfers over to some schoolwork and intelligence. But, to those I know, I always have to be the cheerful guy, the one people tell their problems to. I have to remain the stable one that will always do what he can to help those around him, even if he knows they'll just ignore him later. I have my life sooo much better off because of my material possessions and my "happy family". I can't ever complain or people call me spoiled or inconsiderate. I have my own problems. I have absolutely no personality. I base most things I do on what people around me do, and can never be the first to do anything. I rarely get invited to do anything, and I have only about 4 friends who like to spend time with me, and I don't like partaking in illegal activities which I feel doing could make me popular from the sheer amount of people who know me, yet I find it hard to compromise my rigid internal moral values, which alert me to the fact that I'm missing out on fun, but can never do anything about it. I am incredibly lonely most of the day, have parents who think I'm completely find and I end up spending most of my time playing video games to pass the time. The days blend into each other, just one more preset period of time before I can go to university and hopefully start fresh, while still knowing in my heart that I am going to be the same outcast I am now. And after all this, I still have to force myself up in the morning to walk outside and try to be the stoic one who can solve everyone's f---ing problems because, after all, apparently I'm the f---ing stable one.
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James, I'm sorry people think you're supposed to be completely stable all the time. ._. No one can be, it's not human. I can relate to a lot of this, though I've found some ways I enjoy spending my time. I like that you don't compromise yourself and be who you are. Even if other people don't understand, I think you're incredibly awesome and smart. You're also a great writer and debater. We all go through periods of stillness and boredom, and where things are seemingly alright, but they're not.
So really, what I'm trying to say is I'm here for you bro, and if you ever want to talk about something or hang out I'm here. :B -
I'm not good for advice..sorry your under pressure though.Nobody is stable,its like..we're all human y'know.We all have limits.Your a cool dude and I may not always say much but I do listen or try to help.
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I feel like you're going to yell at me if I say this, but I know how that feels. I spent quite a while in isolation before I actually made some friends who cared to spend time with me, and when I did make friends, they wanted me to be the emotionless one that would help you through anything. This is the same reason I've been going to therapy for.
James, I'm sorry people fine to expect someone to be f---ing stable and use them and not reciprocate. Nothing about any of this is healthy (or human), and it's downright retarded anyone would actually think it's reasonable to do this. Like what Ana said, it's rare to see someone who won't compromise who they are just to gain popularity. But you shouldn't need to. I believe you're already amazing as it is. If other people don't see this, then it's their f---ing loss. You're a great friend, and I love you. I'm sorry I can't say much more to actually make you feel better, but you know where we are. And if you don't feel like playing video games, you're more than welcome to call me. That's why I gave you my number in the first place.
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