Why?
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Thread Topic: Why?
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Why do I ahve to be so fucked up? I've done self harm, I made the stupid mistak eof telling someone, and now I've caused my own downfall. I can't focus in school because of the pressure, so my grades are slipping. Everything I say in school ends up into a "you should tell someone" when it's really nothing anyone's going to help with. Telling people is how I ended up here and I'm just done. Bullying has gotten worse, when I try to say something, I freeze up, teachers side with the bully and accuse me of doing something wrong. I feel like crying everyday. I'm almost never happy anymore, and I blame myself. After all, how are others suppsoed to make you happy, when you can't even make yourself happy? What I really need is support, and I can't even get that anymore. I want to end it, be done, I'm sick. I hate myself and I'm hating everything around me too. I hate how I can't go a day without being reminded what I've done worng and how much of a mistake I am. My "family" thinks that their problems are too important to help me, and I'm desperate. They just judge me and tell me what I do wrong. I really am sick of it. I'm done. I wish I wasn't such a wimp. You guys may say, "Don't think of what you hate, you must care about something!" but I really don't, nothing that's worth all this. My "family"? They care more about the cats than me. The cats. They're also part of my overall hating. My true friends left? They're leaving me. I'm alone. I have nothing I want to stay for. I've started feeling like a big mistake too. I was a mistake in my GTQ family, so I left. I can't leave my real family and I'm an even bigger mistake to them than when I was in the GTQ one. I'm at a loss of what to do. No I don't trust any adults, and no I don't expect this to be acknowledged, so no harm done for ignoring me.
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*sigh* I don't really know what I can say to make you feel better, I'm sorry, but I honestly can't. Considering I'm an internet person, but...suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I can't say I know what you're going though exactly, I've been bullied, badly, before. And I know, it must feel like a permanent problem, but nothing is permanent.
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Tatoos are permanent. -_____-" Honey lasts forever. Seeing as I've been dealing with this stuff my whole life, I think I know. I feel that this will never end. Ever.
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