Venting thing
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Thread Topic: Venting thing
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Girl, I hope you understand
I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't, wanted to be your man
Back then
And you knew I fell for you
But you just broke my heart in two
I was sad, mad, and broken on my bed
Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head
I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med
When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead
And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat
I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"
So instead I took my pen and started writing evidence
And when I started making sense, I found that I had reached the end
Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends, you wanna bet, you're just pretend?
You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing, you're not s---
I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did I
said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived
They were my neighbors, razor blades and different flavored pills I hid
Therefore, I'm at surely my last straw
I'm so gassed, stuck in the past, I said that
Girl, I hope you understand
I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't, wanted to be your man
Back then
And so far I never held you with my arms
So it's hard to be the one you aren't with
Instead, filled with anxiety
Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be
Somebody 'cause it's not me, I'm not used to all the talking
Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing
Used to cope with all my problems using notes and lots of rhyming
Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying
I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back
To the times that I would try and be the guy the people know as
Always fighting with the demons hiding far behind my eyelids
On an island full of violence, in my head I had two pilots
Oh, the sun don't shine, the skies turn gray
I feel it coursing through my veins
I said before I'm not okay
But you don't listen anyway
You know I tried, you turned away
Straight out lied right to my face
You f---ed my life, ruined my day
But you don't know, so I'll say
Nothing can fill this silence
No one can love like I did (you don't know, so I'll say)
Nobody cares, you lied, it's
not fair, you still deny it (so I'll say)
Nothing can fill this silence
No one can love like I did (you don't know, so I'll say)
Nobody cares, you lied, it's
not fair, you still deny it (so I'll say)
Girl, I hope you understand
I wanted to hold your hand
But I can' you,wanted to be your man
Back then
And too bad I know I can't wake up
Because I've lost my weight, and you don't give a f--- about me
This could be a dream
I can't see the things that you see, so please, oh
Girl, I hope you understand I
I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't, wanted to be your man
Back then
And you had known and played along
You were my home, I wrote you songs
Now you're dead to me, effectively
Removed yourself outside my dreams -
I want to hold her
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Don want money don't want fame just want happiness just want you
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Also just made that up but probably inspiration by someone else
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What am I saying 🤣ðŸ˜
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I love you #232243224
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Thanks for being you
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Nad
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"When ur in a relationship everyone suddenly wants u, but when ur single it's like where did everyone go?
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Massive tw coming up
You can'tve just hurt me like that
How young was i -
I went into the bathroom. I felt, "it's all my fault. They wouldnt have started fighting if you had never told them about what they did to you." And i was shaking. I rolled up my sleeve and just... went for it. And, of course, i bled. So much. It flowed off my arm. Onto my leg. Off my leg. Onto the toilet seat. Off the toilet seat, and formed a puddle on the floor. I would've kept going if it wasn't for the fact i was lightheaded. I didnt want to die, i just wanted to get a high off the blood. And i spent so f---ing long dealing with the mess, the mess I'd made... I'm different now, i don't cut anymore, but the pain is unbearable
Scars... Bruises... Mental wounds -
I came out. "Where'd you get the fake blood from? Go to your room!"
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After that, i kind of lost my nerve. I'm lucky i did, because there were so many opportunities i could've ended it all... I'm glad I didn't.
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Then, i found a girl, and she left me
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