|~Nothing Ever Makes Sense~|
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Thread Topic: |~Nothing Ever Makes Sense~|
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*Thanks, you guys
my grammar is terrible -
So now I'm the bad guy?
Parents are full of s---. -
Apparently accidents are me purposefully trying to hurt someone.
How strange, mom. -
You need to talk?
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your mother is strange
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Maybe she should've spent time investing in her own kids instead of others.
Whenever she would finish tutoring other kids, my brother and I would always get the side of her that was literal Hell.
Maybe I wouldn't be like this had my mother not ruined my childhood.
8 year olds shouldn't have to experience holding a f---ing knife to their chest.
But what happened in my childhood?
Ignored
Hurt
Anger
And it all led up to that.
At least I stopped myself.
It was like my body was on complete autopilot.
I even stated what happened in that diary entry they found this year. About what I did when I was 8. How I would always try to perfect myself so my mother would give me an ounce of attention.
I remember getting a 4.0 thing. Apparently my mother said that made me really smart.
I worked so hard.
And all I got was a pat on the back. Just a compliment.
But if my mom's students accomplished something she found wonderful, they would always get a hug, encouraging words, etc.
So yeah, maybe it wasn’t Highrise that made me this. Maybe it was my mother.
Every
f---ing
Day
She would let kids into her house to tutor them. Of course, it was her job.
But she never spent time with us.
I can’t tell whether I'm happy or not that she spends more time with us.
It’s been a few years since she taught a student, but it still lingers in my head how upset I was. How jealous that my mother wasn’t there for me and my brother.
In fact, the only reason she stopped was because she was having another f---ing child. She didn’t stop for my brother and I.
Sure, she's apologized for it, but what good does that do if it still f---ing hurts?
I remember how much I loved and adored her.
How much I wanted to be like her.
Wasn’t that just a little girl full of worthless dreams? -
Oop, late post. Sorry.
Thanks for offering. I think I got it all out though. ^^ -
I’m sorry, let’s a lot of pressure and pain that you’ve gone through.
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Hope u feel better 💛
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It's okay. It’s just the past. I need to learn to let some things go.
Thanks. 💖 *hugs* -
Because now, I don’t give two flying f---s about being that perfect little girl.
Maybe for other people, but not for my parents.
They lost their chance a long time ago. -
On the bright side, today was pizza night.
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🥺🥺🥺 *helps-8
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Ty
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