running out of breath.
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Thread Topic: running out of breath.
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please, don't give up on me yet
i know i'll get better, i'm just not better yet
can you tell I'm trying? running out of breath
i know i'll get better, i'm just not better yet
figured i’d start a new one, i get anxiety when my venting thread gets over like, somewhere around twenty pages but i was trying to convince myself it was fine when my old one got “too far” but uh, that wasn’t healthy sooo here we are
maisie peters is one of my new favorite artists 😌 she makes f---ing good music
anygay (yes i meant to put ‘gay’), i’ll post a vent in a second.
so how do you feel 'cause I feel hollow
this hurts so loud, further than down
hollow
are you happy now? i hope you're happy now -
TW: APIPHOBIA (i believe)
TW: ANXIETY ATTACK
so my family went to the park yesterday, got snow cones, walked around, chatted abt random stuff, etc., but then while we took a break to sit down, there was a trash can nearby that was swarming with bees. so i did not wanna sit there, i walked about at least twenty feet away to eat my snow cone and faces the other way so i wasn’t looking at the bees. but then a bee flew up to me and flew around my face, so that scared the s--- out of me. i screeched, ran away, and that’s when i had an anxiety attack. when i get anxiety attacks, i dunno if it’s different for everyone else or not, but i typically hyperventilate really badly, but the scale of the hyperventilation can range. this time, it was pretty bad, i felt utterly light-headed after a little bit of hyperventilating. i’m dead serious when i say i think i have a phobia of these things because i don’t think it’s normal to have anxiety attacks if one gets near you or not.
but yk one of the worst parts is that while i was having the attack (obviously not ok, hyperventilating, can’t stop, can’t move), my mom told me to get up and just go away from the bees so that i wouldn’t freak out as much but i’ve talked to her about my anxiety attacks before and she knows that i hyperventilate and it’s f---ing hard for me to move!! and to make worse, only a few minutes after the anxiety attack, she made me read a talk from a modern-day prophet/apostle from our religion and lead a discussion about it like what the f--- woman, did you not just see me have an anxiety attack -
like she doesn’t even ask if i’m ok?? no one event asks if i’m okay after seeing me f---ing have an anxiety attack right in front of their eyes?? the fact that no one cares about that serious section of my mental health just pisses me off because i’m able to stop myself hyperventilating after a little bit but i know that one day something’s gonna trigger a really bad attack and i’m not gonna be able to stop.
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*hugs* I'm so sorry that you went through that, that's awful :(
I do think that your mom might have been trying to distract you from the bees, but just didn't really do it the right way -
LATE POST I'M SORRY
Are you feeling any better now? :( 💛 -
*hugs* thanks spoce. yeah that is true i guess
on the bright side, i’m finally getting a therapist and my first meeting with them is on wednesday T^T i’m so happy -
WAIT NO LATE POST TOO-
i think i’m feeling better <33 tysm -
*sobs* THE LATE POSTS ARE OUR LIVES NOW
And YOOO CONGRATS :DD -
*distant sobbing*
TYTY :DD -
OH NO
OH NO CRAMPS
CRAMPS -
OH GOD NOOOOO
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IT HURTS T^T AND I CAN'T FIND THE RICE SOCK
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OMG YOU SHALL HEAL
IN THE NAME OF THE CHANCLA -
THANK YOU TREM BUT THERE BE NO HEALING
THESE WILL LAST ABOUT A WEEK
AND I'M JUST GONNA HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT TwT -
*PRAYS FOR U TO FIND RICE SOCK*
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