I just got really sad thinking
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Thread Topic: I just got really sad thinking
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I wanted that warm feeling, something like the reminiscence of talking to someone again after years of being apart, and then I remembered it's all gone. Everything from my childhood that made me happy has either died or been tainted by all of these circumstances and been turned against me. I literally have nothing and I feel like I'm trapped in the present and doomed to the future because I can't make people pretend they care about me or that they ever did and so I'm really just stuck here in the grave I dug for myself and I can't not be sad about it.
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I know how you feel. But you should try to remember and make the best of right now, so that you won't feel this way forever.
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How can I make the best of right now? What have I got going for me right now? I'm being pressured into attending college just to rack up debt and live my life paying it off. None of my friends bother to talk to me. I've not been able to go a single moment for the past couple of weeks without feeling pressured and stressed, as if my life is going to end any second or like it wouldn't matter if it did because there's no way to counter the fact that all my life is going to be is school, followed by manual labor, sickness and retirement and then death. There's nothing to live for at all, so I can't live in right now, and again I want to hide in my childhood with my grandma or my cat, but everything isn't alright and my grandma and my cat are dead and the house belongs to someone else now and I don't know any of my family and I hate the people I live with and I don't know how to deal with it and it's making me want to die.
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I really just want it back. I'm sorry.
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