~Love and Deepspace~
- Locked by Br0wnieBunny on Aug 31, '24 9:31pmReason: owner request
Thread Topic: ~Love and Deepspace~
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I feel ill...
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This song makes me want to headbang....
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Clearly you can't eat spicy foods. Just stop. It hurts to watch this.
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On one hand, I'm awake at night. On the other hand, I'm more depressed with less of a clear reason.
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I'm doing too much, I'm doing too much, I'm doing too much...
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I don't know. I don't feel okay...
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I never went to sleep last night, and the birds are starting to wake up, now. I guess it's a good thing I don't have anywhere to be today. There was just too much going on inside to sleep. Even a nap might've been good, though.
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And honestly, I think I caved last night, or maybe it was beneficial. I can't tell anymore.
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I really do need to journal. It's not good to just keep everything in. I need to be comfortable writing it out again, even if my privacy is destroyed again and again...
I can't say anything but what I feel even if it's subject to change later on. I just need to get it out... But normal journals don't catch my eye enough for me to want to use them. I have two new journals that are just too plain to use. I've had them for years. I never finished an entry. I think it has to be very specific when I write. The things I frequent in life have to have some sort of value, relevancy, and expression of myself in some way, otherwise I don't feel connected to it and leave it...
I don't know if that's a me thing. I don't even know if I'm making sense... But it's just what happens. So two separate journals for writing. One is a darker theme for darker things. The other is a comfort thing that makes me feel a little happier. I have stickers for my general journal that I'm getting to match. I need to find ways to make jorunaling more attractive so I don't die from silencing myself... -
I feel like I'm dying inside. I have so many things I can't say to anyone, really. Not because it's absolutely impossible, but because I worry about traumatizing them as well, if they were understanding, or further traumatizing myself if my expression is rejected. I'd rather remain silent than open up to anyone these days. It's so much harder to say a word. It's so much easier to remain silent and let people assume things, even if it's not correct. I'm tired of arguing to prove that I'm not okay just because I can hide my distress well most of the time. I'm tired of arguing why I'm not this monster that people I assume I am...
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I wonder how much longer I'll be awake. It's almost been 24 hours since I last slept...
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I didn't even nap after work like I usually do, so I've been up since the time I woke up yesterday all the way until now. Haven't even dozed off for a few seconds. But now, as I think on it, I can slowly feel myself crashing...
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Good night/good morning.
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Just waking up.
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There's a lot on my mind today. I really want to actually take off with sewing. I've been doing a bit here and there, handstichting for my Cloud Strife cosplay and all, but I want to make full-on outfits and I legit need a mannequin for that. I need to figure out how to afford one.
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