~Love and Deepspace~
- Locked by Br0wnieBunny on Aug 31, '24 9:31pmReason: owner request
Thread Topic: ~Love and Deepspace~
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We getting that good sleeps tonight.
I'm exhausted after being cute all day.
I felt like a celebrity, even though literally no one complimented my new outfit. I wish I felt that confident about myself all the time. It was refreshing to feel so happy and proud of the way I look for once. -
How do I do things that make me feel good about myself more often?
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What should I do now?
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Wanted to draw, but I'm actually too tired for that.
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I don't like seeing you like this. I know you're better than this. Maybe take a break if you need to. Regroup.
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I don't even like Rafayel, but here we are.
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Y'all disappointed me. Of course you'd choose Sylus. That's why I went with Xavier. Any new thing that arrives is the hot thing.
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Me and my friend played Fortnite yesterday and we got 5 wins in a row. And they were all crown wins because I still had my crown from the last time I played Fort. It was so cool.
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Now that my teeth are bearable, I can't wait to go to work tomorrow and make dat money.
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My throat is feeling slightly sore, though, but I'm hoping it's just from the tooth pain...
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Life is lonely...
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I feel really depressed, now. I've been doing treatment for years, but every time, my therapists get stumped by me. I'm doing the things they recommend to try, and they know that I do. We go through exercises together, log everything, but nothing makes an impact on my state. There is no breakthrough. Medicine doesn't do much of anything. My body is unresponsive to it, or it just barely makes a difference.
But everyone still keeps telling me I have to try harder to get better.
Can we accept the fact that I might never get "better"? Can we just acknowledge that I might be in an ebb and flow until further notice? When I think I'm getting better, it doesn't last. When I think I'm getting worse, it eventually changes. But I never reach the "normal" people are looking for. -
But still, there's talk of, "You can do that when you're better."
I don't know if there will be a "better" that's better than where I am now. -
The fact that all my therapists reach the same wall isn't comforting to know. Some get there faster than others...
But when they've tried all the tools they have, and my body doesn't respond to any of it, what is there left to do? -
I don't really want to be alive...
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