Just a question. Just a simple question. Read sub-title 1st.
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Thread Topic: Just a question. Just a simple question. Read sub-title 1st.
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Alright. Hello people who may or may not have any idea what they’re doing. Either way just uh listen I guess? Fair warning, I might start sounding mentally insane in the next few paragraphs!
So. I’ve been experiencing this for a few years or so now and only just figured out what it was. Beforehand I wasn’t too worried- it only happened one or twice a month. Nothing too bad, eh? Well. Now it’s happening multiple times a week, multiple times a day, it happened twice today so far and I think it’s gonna happen again pretty soon just about now because I can feel it coming about two minutes beforehand.
It’s just this sense of being disconnected from reality itself, and I don’t know what is and isn’t real, I don’t know what life and death and emotion and the difference between s--- is, hot and cold and happy and sad and life and death and pain and suffering all seem like almost illusions sometimes, and is the illusion reality or is it simply void I don’t know I really don’t know it didn’t use to be this bad I don’t f---ing know anymore.
I used to be able to do something, anything, to make myself feel pain, to snap myself out of it, but now I st.b myself with my fingernails and nothing happens, it doesn’t work like it used to, I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what is and isn’t real, I don’t know if there really is a reality and I’m just disconnected from it, and just about everything is telling me it’s called derealization.
I understand that some people may say it’s common to have it a couple times in your life, but can someone tell me when it reaches the point where it’s happening to such an extent that it’s considered concerning or highly concerning? -
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Yeah, it's most likely derealization.
According to multiple sources I have looked at, it could also mean you may have a dissociative/depersonalization disorder. Don't count on my word, tho. I'm not a professional, it's just a possibility. -
Lots of things I look at say DPDR, which sounds possible but no, I don’t want a mental health doctor therapy person, even if it’s the only way to make things better-
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Heh, I feel that on a personal level /lh
Oh! And it also branches off from PTSD as well, which is where I get it from. -
Do you have it as well? On this extreme level, or at all?
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Sorry for the late reply!!
Yeah, I have it. I'd say it only happens to me at least once or twice a day, if not more that I'm not aware of or don't remember. It can be extreme like you said above, or it'll be like staring at a TV screen. -
It basically feels like I'm not there, and that I don't exist in the real world. Sometimes I think I'm even dreaming, but usually if I pinch myself hard enough, I'll come back to reality.
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And here I am making myself bleed and thinking- oh it’s fine pain is an illusion-
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Wait, bleeding?? You didn't mention that part! /srs /nm
I don't think that's normal, Cats.
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