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And she’s like oh you both look the total opposite of each other I remember when I was your age I looked just like you but skinnier and with longer hair and also was talking to one of those grunge guys too yeah I used to be so hot
That’s so mean why would you say that to your daughter holy s--- so passive aggressive for no reason she just looked at me and didn’t say anything I wanted the ground to break and take me away it was so uncomfortable -
To be fair her mom is kinda bad not going to lie she looks like Cher but with blonde 80s hair so she probably was attractive in her early 20s
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Why am I talking about this girl’s mom and my mommy issues making her seem attractive on here
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I’m pretty sure that if she found out about me she’d slap the blond highlights out of my hair and call me a slur the only reason she’s nice to me is because she thinks her daughter finally has a relationship
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Speaking of which if I knew getting highlights was so easy I would have had cat girl share her bleach with me sooner before when I was homeless I would squirt 4 lemon all over my head and skate in the sun until closing time then wash off at the water fountain and then sleep in my car within 3 weeeks the hair would lighten and I’d have the surfer hair color
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I’m annoyed with myself and don’t talk about my homeless era that much because I feel that if I mention it more than once it’s going to sound like I’m basing my entire personality around that experience and while it does hold some interest stories about how all I ate was ramen, bread, apples, and 24 pack waters while in a car I don’t want that to be what I am
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Honestly I change my personality so much to mix with different people I kind of have no clue what I’m actually like anymore all I know is I like skating and crying At my job because we are under staffed
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I do t give a s--- about anything else forget everything else I said what is that
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I can’t tell her that if I do she can have a heart attack or whatever people with her disorder get I don’t like her but she is my step mom and the mom of my brother what the f--- how
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I knew my dad was scummy but not this much holy s--- I’m not going to touch that issue with a ten foot pole I don’t know what’s going on there and I don’t want to know
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I’m anxious now and I know I said I wasn’t going to do the house keeping anymore because somebody else had to do it but this is the only way I cope now it’s either that or going back to smoking cigarettes and my wallet can’t afford that at this time
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Because let’s face it anyway no one else was going to do it
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See the problem is I do want to be on my own and have my own place but I know I can’t kick her out or me move out because if I do then my dad is going to gaslight her and pull the “my son needs a dad” card and she’s going to believe it and then she’s going to be back with him and then he’s going to cheat on her again and then it’s going to lead to a break up and or random people are going to be around my sibling and I won’t be able to take care of them they will not go through what I went through I don’t care if that means no individual life in my 20s he can’t grow up in that environment
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I don’t know if I should tell her what we got in the mail probably not it’s not even time for anybody to be up now it’s just me because I don’t sleep due to my medication which is apparently bad but I don’t mind because I have the place to myself so I’m just going to go ahead and clean the living room and kitchen now because I can’t right now it’s either that or go cry in the bathtub out of anxiety bye bye
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Wait what if I wake them up holy s--- In my headspace I am alone but not literally I’ll just pick up all the clothes and separate the colors then at around 6 when I am supposed to actually be awake I’ll pop the laundry in I feel like crying who would have thought doing house chores would end up being my alternative to self destructive behavior
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