Ripper's Edge
Thread Topic: Ripper's Edge
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It's ok, I completely understand, I also thought I should mention this is eggaly
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I know.
I'm going to eat lunch. -
Have fun
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So, I have an hour, then I have to get off.
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I need someone I can trust to tell a dark secret to. Well, it's not dark, and it's more of a new discovery or realization than a secret. I just need to talk to someone about it, but I don't think anyone's around.
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I know it's probably not the best...
But if I feel bad, it only gets worse from there...
And then... -
I don't know.
And out of all people, you chose a guy to talk about it to.
Wonderful s--- we get into. -
I do feel better that we got that off our chest, though.
I'm just really sad, now. I don't even know what this means, changing subject. He didn't give me the slightest hint of what it meant. He just left... -
Well, it's time for me to go, now.
I feel kind of miserable because I don't know what I'm waiting for at this point. I don't know if I'm waiting to start over or be rejected.
I feel like it's the second thing, though. -
Today doesn't feel so good.
Something's been biting at me all night, and it's just a disturbing feeling inside.
Sometimes I just feel this, and can't even explain why, but my parents yell at me and tell me to stop if I say that's what's bothering me.
Um, obviously, if I feel disturbed, it's not by choice. I mean, who would want to? That's kinda stupid. -
Like, I just feel ill. I don't have a word to describe what I feel, so ill is all I can say.
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I know that feeling.
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I feel like I'm wasting my time with it. Like, it's not a team effort if I'm trying to do everything, and now you won't talk so we can work it out. I'm getting fed up with this, and it's just annoying and I don't know what to do.
I'm getting seriously angry, like, Ripper angry, and it takes a lot to do that...but, I suppose not on something as important and touchy as my emotions.
I've been fooled once, twice even. But third time is far from a charm if this is how it's going to go.
I'm really upset, and this isn't making it any better how you won't communicate and you have all the ability in the world.
And I hate having to act like I'm your mom. I DON'T WANT TO BE YOUR MOM! I want to be your peer, and I can't even begin to be that if I have to correct you and lecture you every time something happens.
I don't know how it's so hard to get this across, but it just doesn't seem to make sense to you.
I don't want to be left in the dark like this, wondering, "Well, do I try again, or do I leave him alone? Am I the only one trying, at this point?"
And how the hell do you think you can play the victim when you were the cause?! What did I do to you? Um, last I checked, nothing! And even when I have every right to let you have it, I don't. The worst I do is vent in anger until I can calm down like how I'm doing right now, but that doesn't mean I hate you.
But I don't know how to handle people who take every single word as the literal meaning of everything. I don't have the best words, you know, so you can't dig so deep to pry out a meaning that I didn't even hint to.
And nothing gets easier when it's left as it was. I don't even know what the heck you want or expect me to do now.
And you just...........................................................................................
So I don't know what ".........................................." means! -
I realize that there is a difference between being patient and loving and overextending myself for something that doesn't need it. I just want to know which one I'm doing, here, because if it's the second one...
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And here we go again...
Feeling bad...
We know what comes next...
Last time, the rare occasion of videogames stopped me that night...
But this time...this time, what's left to stop me?
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