i'm tired of life.
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Thread Topic: i'm tired of life.
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I've written over 40 thank you cards, and now I'm having to find over 40 addresses so that we can mail them. I have to look in over 10 sources for the addresses because I don't know anyone's address.
My brain hurts from all the notebooks and screens I have to look at and I'm just in a foul mood. -
I have an addiction... It’s not very fun
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My sister says my medicine isn’t strong enough. I think it’s just my fault
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I know I said I wouldn't be on, but this is a serious thing. I need to get this out.
Last night, I visited the website where my friends were. None of them were online. I just feel so awful for knowing them for 4 years and never having a second thought about leaving them. I wish they knew that I had come back, because they have no clue how badly I miss them. I just want them to talk to again. They haven’t responded to my messages yet.
And the worst part is that they’re not like me. They’re people that I would normally never talk to, but when I got a chance to we became good friends.
I’m starting to see a theme, I develop a relationship with someone and then leave them- without ever turning back. Then, a year later I come back wondering where they went and regretting everything I did.
I told them to come to GTQ, I hope to God that they saw it. Because I seriously don’t want to go through life without knowing they’re safe. -
I just wanna cry. I hate knowing that I could’ve been there, but I wasn’t. It hurts me so badly to know that I may never know of them again. I don’t know what to do.
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My mom misinterprets everything I say. I'm almost afraid to speak at all in case she misinterprets it and starts yelling at me. And I can't tell her that I didn't mean it that way, because she'll think I'm just trying to cover things up when I'm not and scream at me even more. She thinks everyone's out to get her. But we're family. We're the last people that would be out to get her. But she wouldn't listen to me if I told her that.
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i can definitely relate to that : (
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Venting
I feel like everybody hates me, and doesn't want me in their lives. I try my best to stay out and isolate myself, but my siblings just won't let me have my time alone... My older sister and I are opposites. She loves make-up, clothes, shopping, and more. I like video games, reading, writing, football, and more. She doesn't. She's bubbly, sassy, actually very annoying, but I don't think she sees that, and she's immature. Whenever she asks me to go to the store, I always say no, since she asks me this every single day... When I say no to something she wants to do, she'll either say, "You're the worst sister ever!", or "You never want to spend time with me! All you care about is yourself!". There's one thing she doesn't understand; I hate socializing, I have a limited comfort zone, and that I'm not very talkitive, unlike her. She constantly invites herself into my room, barging through the door without knocking. When I tell her to leave me alone, her respone is usually, "You're the worst sister ever!", "Gladly!", "Ugh!", "You're so annoying!", and more. My friend group has been falling apart, too... To the point where I don't even contact them, anymore. Homeschool, too. I don't complain, but my mother actually pushes me past my thinking limits... I try to do my work, but it's hard with so many distractions. -
ME TOO
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This suits me so well.
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I'm suddenly overwhelmed with hopelessness, I hate this, I feel like I'm dying in all my pathetic glory, I let the feeling that my friends don't care about me rush over me like a f---ing flood then I put in all the things my sister has that I don't and it tears me apart, it hurts so bad, then I paired it with my inability to talk with people on here anymore and make more friends on here especially with my inability to get close with the older users, it's honestly killing me tonight and I can't fathom why or how
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