cafe cinnamon <3
- Locked by DarkIsTheCat on Jul 14, '20 11:36amReason: Owner's request.
Thread Topic: cafe cinnamon <3
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ignore me. i was seeing which colors i liked better.
anyways, i’m probably abt to go off n sorta deep abt myself. -
i’ve always been confused abt my sexuality and gender identity. a lot of people i’m friends with and users here know that i’ve questioned my sexuality for a while. i know that i’m attracted to males, but i don’t know about females, genderfluids, non-binaries, etc. i just know i’m attracted to males. i don’t rlly like to call myself straight because i don’t feel like i am? for one, i don’t like labeling sexuality anyway, but i feel like i could be attracted to females, yet i’ve never been in a relationship with one. i thought this one girl was super cute n i thought i was developing feelings, but i don’t know if that was just me thinking i was into her.
i’ve struggled w gender identity, probably to most evryone’s surprise. i’m rlly feminine as of now, but a few years ago, i rlly questioned myself. i felt like a boy and i wanted to be a boy. i know i was only like nine, ten, eleven, whatever ages. i would tell people online that i was a boy, that i used he/him pronouns. even when they knew i was a female, i told them to call me masculine names such as avery and jonah. (i don’t know if i used other names). i always shopped for clothes in the boys or men section. i wanted to feel more masculine. my mother never questioned it because she thought i was just going through some sort of “tomboy” phase.
when i was in fourth, fifth, sixth grade, so many of my friends and a lot of the boys in my classes suspected that i was a lesbian. most of them wouldn’t confront me and actually ask, but they’d always assume. i knew i liked guys, being so young and all and i had those cute little crushes n stuff. in reality, i did want them to think i was just lesbian. i didn’t want people to know how much i longed to be a boy, to be treating like all the other boys i went to school with. i thought i would seem like a freak. i was too sensitive and scared i’d be bullied or made fun of.
it’s so weird to look back at how i use to be and i still don’t know how i feel about my sexuality or gender identity. -
i’m also an indecisive person, which doesn’t help the matter.
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Heyo
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hi
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You good?
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yes, i’m fine. i was just thinking abt things.
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Such as?
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everything i typed.
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Oh
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i’m either going to end up falling asleep much earlier than usual or staying up much later than usual.
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