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*Hugs tightly*
*Smiles at*
Thanks.. today has been just…ugh. I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t talk to them..
That’s fair. -
-Hugs tightly.-
-Smiles in return.-
Always. Today truly did suck. I'm sorry to hear..
Yeah. I'm barely able to keep myself awake. Haha. -
*hugs tightly*
*I smile and the kittens are eating happily*
It’s alright..
Awe you should rest. -
-Hugs tightly.-
-Smiles and hands you a few cookies.-
No. It isn't.
No. Not until I can cheer you up. -
*hugs tightly*
Yay ! Cookies
I..yeah your right.. just don’t know what to do ..
Heh. But naps are more important! -
-Hugs tightly.-
Heh! Here you go.
I have no idea, either.. But I'll be here always..
...I never want to f---ing sleep again..... -
*hugs tightly*
Thank you. *I break one in half* want some?
Thank you…
What’s wrong?? -
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-Chuckles.- Sure.
Of course.
No.. I just had a horrendous nightmare... -
*Hugs tightly *
*I hand you the cookie* heh. Yay. Now we both have some.
I’m not having a good..idk life? Smh..
I’m sorry. Do you want to talk about it? -
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-Gently takes the cookie.- Thank you kindly. Heheh.
I agree. What's been going on?
It was f---ing awful.... I had to endure both if my cats dying at the same damn time and I just woke up crying my goddamn eyes out.... -
*hugs tightly*
*i smile at you. * Heh. Cookies.
I fell asleep earlier and they all was playing a game on the switch YELLING and it woke me up on more the one occasion so that was nice. Heard them make a comment saying it would of been more fun if I was out there but with my ear any change of a normal decibel level … hurts. Lately I’ve been been experiencing more pain in my ear. It always hurts. Headache. Feels warm on the inside. Slight dizziness. Ect. Not a doctor but that don’t sound normal to me and I’ve been waiting on my insurance to kick in (I have a interview today actually) and them to figure out what’s wrong with their cars so I can actually get to places but since I can’t handle all the loud s--- that’s part of the why I stay in the room. Loud mouth is well loud. Her son that lives here is bipolar and sometimes gets angry at her and they are screaming at each other. And the other members of their family that come and go all talk loud.. everyone’s talking about me. I never said they was talking bad but I had let my roommate know and it caused a whole s--- fest… like I should be able to tell you your entire family is sitting having conversations about me without it being an issue but I guess it is and it could be solved if only I sat out there! It hurts to be out there. It hurts to sit for long so I lay done a lot these days. And honestly I’m tired of all the yelling.. but you know… don’t sound like my happiness matters in this situation cause it all would be solved if only I just went out there,be uncomfortable,probably get sent into another f---ing anxiety attack and everyone be UPSET that I’m crying 🥴🥴🥴 and like I can’t say anything without someone having a f---ing issue but I don’t have a choice in jack s--- because I’m stuck here or be f---ing homeless and at that rate idk what I’m going to do because as of right now I’m broke with no insurance and I can’t get the help I need …. That’s just some of it I went to the urgent care as I told you ..only thing they said they would do is send me home with some ear drops I had to go into the town to get at the 24 hour CVS and it on the shelf and that costed money I don’t have I use them and they block up my ear completely I’m just now starting to get my hearing back I’ve been sitting here with a tissue over my ear for 3 hours … still can only kinda hear out this ear…with all this said if I can still hear them with my ear being f---ed up there’s an issue ? I’m going to try and apply for target or something and completely break myself to make money because at this point I’m thinking of dropping everything and everyone I know in real life and just leaving…. My family hates me, my body hates me I have a bunch of issues I don’t think I should have at 21 years old like I have a ulcer and maybe something worse I get chest pains ect ect I know old lady’s with less issues then I do. I’m suicidal trying not to be before I left I was drinking more then I usually do (not while driving of course) and smoking a lot… I feel like harming myself … everything is just… I don’t know. I barley know who I am any more I don’t recognize myself in the mirror and I haven’t gone to therapy yet even tho I was going a few months ago because it didn’t exactly help I didn’t feel like I could speak to them and I really don’t want to be on mind numbing drugs where I sleep all day and wake up to pee like a zombie and the only reason I haven’t checked myself somewhere because I have bad experiences with places like those and I’m not interested in getting sexually assaulted while in there…. Sorry didn’t mean to rant.
Awe I’m so sorry…*hugs* I’m here for you. -
I don’t know why that took 20 minutes to type but here we are..
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-Hugs tightly.-
-Smiles.- Cookies are nice.
...I think I know a few people who need to be hit with a chair... Has your hearing always been like that, or is it recent?.. Please don't do anything you'll regret.. I've already lost someone who meant the world to me, and I don't think I can do it again... -Hugs you as tight as I can..- It's alright.. I'm here for you and I'm not going anywhere..
You know the cruel part of this?.. I went to check on the cat closest to me and they were dead asleep, not being moved.. So how's your morning going...?
It's alright. No need to worry. -
*hugs tightly*
Yes they are. Yummy too. Heh.
It’s gotten worse. They tell me it’s cause I have wax in my ear and even when I don’t same issue.. it’s getting a lot worse. That’s just part of my non stop f---ing issues… I know… I’m really trying not too… *Hugs back tightly* please don’t go anywhere… I can’t take it again..
awe… that is cruel. Well. Can’t really sleep. I’m just trying not to have a breakdown. Ear..my back hurts from sitting up. Everything hurts. My temperature rose. It’s now 100.3 would be worse right?
I always worry about silly stuff around you. Heh. -
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-Munches on the cookie.- Agreed. Heh.
Doctors that don't find the problem with your ear and sometimes don't bother checking are just incompetent, arrogant, reprehensible twits.. If there is anything I can do, please let me know.. -Hugs you tightly still.- You have my word on that..
That is worse.. I'm unsure I can do much of anything.. Mostly I'd say rest up, but it doesn't seem to be helping..
You don't need to. Hopefully I can at least quell your worries. Heh.
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