A Vent Thread
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Thread Topic: A Vent Thread
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VENTACCOUNT NewbieI don’t care if you come in here, I just won’t respond
The letters are not what their names start with, for identity reasons and stuff like that.
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I am so tired of him getting treated like s---. It pisses me off, but everyone here is so quick to brush it off their shoulder’s. H is staying over, which is nice, but he was completely contradictory this morning. I am just so tired of how this is going. My anxiety and depression have skyrocketed, not to mention V and Q don’t help with that at all. They are constantly arguing, and that has repercussions on me and F. Going to try to figure a way to get some stuff done. V thinks I don’t remember when she yelled at me on the way to work, but it’s something that makes me nervous. When she raises her voice my anxiety is bad. I don’t know how to fix it. I feel lost, and not in control. Work doesn’t help with that either.
I’m just trying to take one day at a time. See if that helps. So far, it hasn’t, but it might change. -
VENTACCOUNT NewbieI feel as if I am in a downward spiral. I’m just trying to get to a point where I don’t care anymore. H had some friends over the other day. The noise ended up getting to me and I had a panic attack. I haven’t had one of those in a while. F tried to comfort me, and it did help for a bit. H talked with me and explained how me contemplating suicide was selfish. I need to get a therapist, but I don’t know how that is going to work. I really don’t. I don’t have the time, or anyone to take me. I’ve dealt with my feelings this long. I don’t see how talking to someone is going to help. At least someone like that anyway.
My goal now is to find inner peace and give zero f---s. Binaural beats helped me get some sleep last night, so I will thank H for that. Though, there are some moments where I don’t like him, I will agree with him because he’s a logical person. It seems like everyone around me, including F has everything figured out.
It also doesn’t help that we’re in Mercury Retrograde. Yaaaaaaaaay 🙄
Going to try to get some things done today. Hopefully all goes well.
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