Min rant thread
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Thread Topic: Min rant thread
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So one of my biggest problems in my life is how god damn repetitive it is. I start by waking up at around 6, usually through getting yelled at by my dad. I slug around getting food and everything else i need. Then i get forced to go to the s---tiest program in the lds church, Seminary, which unless you live in utah, is basically wake up hours before you have to go to school, go to some class for things you've been learning about for years, and then take an exam for it, on top of all your school classes. Now I didn't hate seminary as much before i moved, but there i had friends, and the school had options of whether you wanted to start earlier or later. And later is really nice because you could go to seminary in whatever you slept in, and then go home and eat and get ready. But here they dont f---ing care, if you dont grab food, you don't eat. Which has happened alot to me. And my parents dont give a s---, they think because my church hosts it that its 'good for me' so they force me to be there every f---ing morning for the entirety of my high school experience, so having to deal with that s--- BEFORE school has seriously made the entire experience way worse then it couldve been.
So skipping the s--- show that is seminary, we go to school, which isnt actually that bad. Despite having to get used to alternating days and longer classes, it hasnt been that bad. The thing is, i have no f---ing friends so my day is boring, and all my classes are super easy but i cant get drop them because i need them to graduate.
And then i come home and watch tv for 4 hours because i cant really do anything else and have no one to talk to or hang out with because everyone in my family is f---ing terrible in their own way.
And then i do the exact same thing every f---ing day.
Other things:
Despite knowing i have anger issues, my parents continue to let all my siblings say whatever the f--- they want to me, and yet the second i say something back im the one who gets yelled at to stop, which really doesnt help.
My parents have told me that they would get me a psychiatrist for my anger, and absolutely nothing has happened, despite at least 4 major breakdowns in the last 2 months. Ive told them repeatedly that i need help but they refuse to give it to me, I honestly dont think they f---ing care about me, they know im gonna be a f--- up and they just wanna kick me out as soom as they can. -
:( I'm sorry fam
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