New Beginnings on an Open Page
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Thread Topic: New Beginnings on an Open Page
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I stg this pic is adorable
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Whoa I think I don't have anything to rant about actually
That's a first -
Welp
When in doubt, find a gif or meme š -
The most retarded joke ever but it's 3:30 -
EXPOSED š±š±š±
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SO TRUE THO
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I totally ship these two lol
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Some people just...š”
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Ooh I feel a nasty rant coming on
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I've been seriously considering packing my bags and finding another message board to hang out on
I clearly don't belong here
I can't get along with the most chill users and I seem to piss everyone off
This is my home and my punching bag for all my emotions but if I find somewhere else I won't need this hellhole anymore
If I wasn't emailing so many people and checking stats I could just say "screw it" right now and just ditch internet altogether but I have so many strings attached
I don't want to be whiny or pouting all the time but I know I'm ultra-sensitive to everything and I hate feeling like a jerk even though I know I am -
I haven't made hardly any new "friends" since my latest internet escapade
With a few exceptions
But if I wasn't already bonded with users from 2015/16, I'm even less bonded now
Especially Rain and The Actual Boss. I want to be liked by them more than anything but they clearly think I'm retarded then when I try to defend myself they think I'm a jerk
And yes I'm acting like I'm 12 years old right now but age is stupid anyway so I don't care -
I know this whole thing sounds so incredibly dumb from start to finish but you don't know what I've been through
I have no one. I'm never around kids my age, and the people I am around are all old enough to be my grandparents.
I have known loneliness darker than any kind of regular funk, and I have begged with my parents to give me something, somewhere that I can have even a few friends. But instead of giving me anything they just took it all away
So that's why I'm so immature on this website. With everyone else, I have to act phony, and pretend I'm really mature and don't have any teenager problems. So I have to vent all of that somewhere. Here I can vomit all my emotions and know that no one will likely read them but maybe someone will. It always feels good to rant anyway.
But then whenever I try to interact with anyone, I'm so socially retarded that I rub them the wrong way and then they hate me
And then I get like this and want to leave -
This is the whole reason I'm not even posting in my Hiccstrid account. I don't want to make people any more mad. I hate being the bad guy, but that's all I am anymore.
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You know the more I think about it I should just head off
Not forever but at least a while
It won't be hard if I'm unwelcome here -
Yeah that's what I'll do
Welp see y'all later then
Or never if I really start pouting
Nah I'll be back. This site is unleaveable
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