My official thread
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Thread Topic: My official thread
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Awesome but u might lose some fingersXD
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Nah she'd be trained. We'd go on adventures.
Is there any part of history that interests you? -
1500-1800 naval vessels and the rise of the turkish and dutch on the african continent
Aswell as ww2 -
Ah.
I love learning about Egypt.
I have to go now sorry
Have a nice night -
Bye
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Idk if this is important enough to tell to someone irl but here I go on another breakdown
I started off with thoughts manifesting me, but they said that's normal and that I'm fine as long as I don't act on it. I started to feel that the intrusive thoughts were possessing me, and that it was not normal. But everyone said I was fine, I was just being overdramatic. I thought I needed help. My medication prescribed said I was doing better and that there was no need to change meds. I felt that was untrue, the suicidal thoughts tempted me more than ever. But everyone said once again, it's fine. I thought I needed more help, but no one else did. Then I decided that I wanted to show them how I truly felt, so I overdosed. Everyone went into hysteria, and said I needed help, and they got me in a hospital. When I got there, I couldn't make friends and I could not trust the counselors. I felt so alone. I ended up having a breakdown in the middle of my session with my clinician, and kept saying that I was fine. Even though I didn't believe that, that's all that could come out of my mouth. So she have me papers to fill out to leave because I "believed I was fine" I got no help. Anne now I'm just in that vicious cycle again. I'm always overreacting I guess. But it's just misery going through the exact thing. I blew my only chance of getting better due to my lack of trust. And now here I am just as I was in the beginning.
"Did you overdose out of impulse?"
No one goes out of their way and smuggles pills to overdose out of f---ing impulse. But I wanted to save my grandma's heart, so I lied and said I did.
But when the person came and grandma wasn't there I told her yeah it wasn't out of impulse. But I ended up lying again when she asked if there were more pills in the bottle of i would've swallowed more. Of f---ing course I would've. I'm literally at where I started. -
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Since there's no physical scars that means I'm okay by everyone else's standards -
damn
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So here I am again
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s--- didn't see you there sorry
Whats up? -
reeeee
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I know the feeling
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Why am I like this
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Maybe in August
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In the second week
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