goddess
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Thread Topic: goddess
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I just had a couple of panic attacks or a really long one I can't really tel
I'm really f---ed up rn
My mom is really f---ed up
I'm scared -
My heart is racing and I just want it to stop
She never stops -
I woke up to my gramma's little dog staring at me and standing right by my face
My throat hurts -
"Your mom really seems to be trying"
You said that the last hundred times
I said that
And then she tried to pick my lock with a knife and took my doorknob off and screamed at me for not calling the cops even though later she told my parents she never said that and
I can't give her anymore chances, I can't
She's the reason I have PTSD
She can threaten to kill herself all she wants but I'm not responsible for the crazy s--- she does, I'm done, I'm done, I'm done. -
all my gramma has is instant coffee
orz -
I like the Chainsmokers even though I also hate them
I'm confused -
I'll just stick to my weird indie music
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I learned a lot about my mom's dad and learned a little of why she's the way she is
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Also couldn't stop my gramma from buying me clothes so I got some swimming trunks, a tanktop, a flannel, and a hoodie
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I don't know what's wrong with me tho
I cuddled with her the other day, arguably the longest I've ever let her touch me
I felt kind of scared
And the other day when she put her arms around me during lunch
I felt really panicky
And it's so weird because I was a slut in middle school, I made out with a total stranger
But now, I can't even look people in the eyes unless I'm spacing out
I just wanted to run away
And I'm always the first to pull away
Besides, I don't think I've cuddled before
I hate that word
Gross -
I usually don't like summer because I'm bored and want to learn but this summer is gonna be lit
If I don't get grounded -
Final Fantasy marathon for me
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bad mental place
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in one of those moods where I just want to hug my knees and disappear into that dark place in my head
thaaaat sounds creepy the way I put it lmao, -
Doctor Tuesday, therapist Friday.
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