I've asked this before, but I guess it's time to ask again.
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Thread Topic: I've asked this before, but I guess it's time to ask again.
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What exactly do you all want me to do? What do you think is wrong with me?
I have an extremely hard time understanding what goes on in people's heads. I'm not a mind reader. I'm merely a person trying to understand motives.
I've been doing my hardest to be the person I've been asked to be. I come on every spare minute I have, working my hardest to do my job. More than that, though, I've done my best to be a friend. I've tried to be there for users, no matter what they have done for me. I'm working on dropping my bias, and dropping my attitude. I'm working extremely hard on not turning to my emotions during times like these.
Even then, it's not enough for some of you. I don't understand it. The other moderators do exactly what I do. They make disisions on what needs to be deleted. They discuss rules over, and discuss what we need to do to keep the site controlled. I'm just doing what they're doing. I mean, if you guys want me to stop posting, I can do that. But I was told that a change that should happen is I need to be there as a friend and as someone people can talk to. So I've strived to do that. I strive to be here so people can question me or speak to me. I strive to not be "scary" and to be friendly/open.
I just want to know what will make you guys feel more comfortable around me, I guess. I'll be around to take the shots towards the moderators if that's what it comes down to, and I'll be the moderator you all can walk over to make yourselves feel better, but I'm tired of having to fight with some of you. I don't feel that I have done anything to deserve what I've had come at me. I've only ever changed the way I was asked to.
So, once again, I'm ready to change. I'd like to know how I can resolve problems with people and how I can make this site more enjoyable for everyone. -
*decisions
*strived isn't a word, but I'm not sure what to replace it with
On another note, my post time is extremely high. So forgive me, my responses will be agonizingly slow and I'll have many late posts. -
What it seems like is that the stress and pressure is getting to you. This is slightly worrisome.
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I'm not here to have s---s and giggles. I want a genuine reason why you dislike me, what you want me to change, and what I can do so you'll be more comfortable around me. Please, for once, take this seriously.
Oh, most certainly. I've told everyone multiple times that I am under a lot of stress. Having people band against me, delete my posts, and tell me how bad of a moderator I am doesn't help my offline life. But I'm willing to do my hardest to calm down and take it, if I can get at least some of these people to listen to me and take this thread seriously. I really do like this site, and it means a lot to me. Maybe a lot more than it should. I'm sure it's why I've been so down about the drama. -
dark, you aren't doing anything wrong. people are just a--holes, and there's some that try and pick on you for the fun of it, and there's those who you won't please no matter what. don't stoop down to their level and change yourself to please them. that's what they want you to do. it's okay to listen to their problems, but you should stay true to yourself.
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You're not a robot for everyone else. Remember that. You don't need to change for anyone. Please, please remember that. And take care of yourself.
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Thank you for caring. I will stay true to myself. But I want to know specifically what is wrong with me, and what I might be able to do to prevent issues like this in the future. I'd like to be able to continue to enjoy this site without being so worried that I'm doing something that anger even those whom appreciate what I do. I won't change EVERYTHING, but I hope I can accommodate to some.
Thank you, as well, for caring. I know I'm not a robot. But I also know I have room to change, and I'm sick of being targeted for no reason. I can't promise I'll take care of myself, but I can tell you I'm trying.
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