~Secrets~
Thread Topic: ~Secrets~
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Okay, soon I will just let all my pent up feelings out into one paragraph for everyone to read, so they will knowe how I really feel. Not like anyone really cares anyway, but I'm not doing it to get sympathy, I'm doing it to clear my mind.
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Hello,it's me. XD
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Hello from your mothers bed!
Look TBA I'm not willing to be your best friend again straight away but I am willing to try and go through the stages with you alright? -
Okay, so here are my feelings, I just want you to know how I really feel.
I hate it. The way that people always flick me away when I try to be nice to them, when I want to be nice to them. It feels as if you are against me, trying to deliberately upset me, then you sit back and admire the pleasure of the emotional pain you have caused upon someone else. For me, it's like a scar that won't go away, a memory engraved into my mind, I keep getting so worked up and upset about pathetic little situations, that any normal person would just forget about it in a few minutes or hours. Maybe I'm just too sensitive, too dramatic about things. I honestly don't know anymore. When I was trying to be nice to you, I thought I was accomplishing something, I thought I was doing something right for once. But no. Boy was I wrong, I totally didn't get the reaction I expected. I have an example of when I was being nice to someone, and get just threw it back in my face, but I'm not going to name that person, otherwise a fight will start and everything: all my promises, all my apologies and everything else I said would go downhill, and I would be hated again. I fear that I might upset people, that I might do something wrong again because it feels as if everything I say or do is a curse, is wrong. I hate that feeling. But I can't just push it to the back of my mind, I just can't. No one really understands how I actually feel. No one even cares about how I feel, they just strive to upset me. And it seems like their plans are working. I'm just sick and tired of hiding away, of covering my feelings up all the time, I just want to be normal for once. I just want to be liked. But it's hard to make friends, now I realize. It's especially hard for me, when I know that I would probably mess up. I can't go on like this anymore, I hate this, but I knowI ccan't go on moaning all the time, because I'm sure as hell that there are many people out there with problems far worse than my petty worries. Oh well. I hope you understand me, I hope you forgive me someday.
There. All my feelings are out. No more of my screaming. -
^late post.
Sorry for taking ages to reply, I was writing that paragraph ;-;
Lyle, yes ok, I guess that's fine. -
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Will you be my friend to?
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I guess so
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Yay!
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ill be ur friend
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Yes, yes :3
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DracoMalfoyFan Novicehey gg and johnny i thought u were her freind?
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You been my friend Ello. In fact I'm also your stocker. Don't look in your bathroom.
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DracoMalfoyFan Novicelol!
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im gg's friend, but this guy seems nice too
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