Heph's thread
- Locked by Hephaestuschild on Dec 10, '20 10:57amReason: Making New Official Thread
Thread Topic: Heph's thread
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Yeah, you did. Because I know I said some cruel things and therefore I have you one. It wasn't loaded at all.
No, I didn't. But like I said this morning, I guess we're just not understanding each other anymore.
Well I was scared that you hated me. Being IGNORED for OVER AN HOUR after trying to make up for something sucks! You're always scared of me, and I'm tired of it! I'm tired of being ignored by people and then having to apologize when I offend someone! I wish you would just tell me things, Heph. And even though I didn't like what you said to me this morning, I really admired your courage for saying it to my face. That's the f---ing side of you I WANT to see. A mix of friendly but determined Heph. You made fun of me to, and I was crying long before. Thanks for telling Anri, Heph, it was nice of you.
I wanted to listen. It took me a while, but I read your email and I realized you were right. But of COURSE MARU IS THE ONLY ONE YOU EVER BELIEVE IN. Of course my apology doesn't work for either of you. I'm trying SO HARD to get along with everyone but I keep on getting into worthless arguments that make everyone hate me! All I did was apologize for not understanding you! And you shoved it in my face! -
Apparently so.
Well then I guess I'm sorry for speaking my mind and not backing down. Is that better? -
Finally. Thank you.
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Yeah so not loaded. You just said right there that you were hurt more than me which was funny because last I checked you don't know my feelings.
I don't hate anyone. We've been over this.
'Scared of you'? No, I'm not. You don't scare me. I'm scared if I stick up for myself against you the whole site will go against me. Which they did.
Anri asked and I told her. It's not a big deal. You can tell people what I say, too. It doesn't bother me.
I trust Maru because she's never gotten mad like this at me. She and Ben are the only ones who've never screamed at me.
I said I'm sorry. And I am. I didn't mean to hurt you. I just was tired.
Today is the one year anniversary of my sister's death, and I've just been emotionally drained. -
Well you don't know my feelings either. I guess we'll never know who was the saddest of them all, huh?
Sure did look like it.
Then why'd you ignore me if you weren't scared? And no, that's BS. A whole two people got upset. Madison was trying to help end this fight, and Andi's always going to be fed up with the world. Two users is not "the whole site".
Whatever.
They're a lot more peaceful than me towards you. You don't hurt their feelings, so it's not like they have a reason to get mad, let alone argue with you. I'm the third- no, fifth wheel- when it comes you you, Maru, Ben, and Anri. I'm the extra that gets plopped on whenever someone else has to leave. You don't tell me much, and it looks like you don't trust me as much anymore.
I'm not sure wether to take your apology or not. Because if mine is considered crap, how do I know yours is real? I can't tell anymore, Heph.
I apologize for that. -
I never said I did. You're the only one who assumed you did.
No, I guess you didn't see the others who stood up for you. It was more than those two. But alright. I won't push this because it's not important.
I don't mean to hurt your feelings.
No, you're really not. But again, there's no reason for me to argue with this because you'll believe what you want and I can't stop you. We all have freedom of choice.
I don't care if you accept it or not. I just want this s---fest to end so we can all get back to our lives.
You can denounce our friendship or we can make up it doesn't matter to me anymore, it's all up to you. -
If this arguement lasts any longer I'm just going to tell you I don't have the emotional strength right now to handle it.
In all honesty I should be sobbing into a pillow right now but I'm online because I want to fix things so we can all be happy again.
But if we can't, please tell me, so I can go cry over an extra thing. -
Well sorry for assuming. I guess I should stop thinking my own opinions because I'm apparently always wrong.
No, I didn't. I'd love to see who tried to, because as far as I'm aware those are the only two who confronted you. This is important, at least to me. Because it's news to my ears that anyone would care to attempt to "back me up".
Well you sure did.
Then what am I? Why am I the one that hears everything last? Why am I the only one that has to fight you guys? Why don't you all talk to me in my own threads anymore? I have no other way to answer those those than the idea that I'm the fifth wheel.
I dunno what to say. I know Maru won't be talking to me any time soon, so it wonMt exactly be over over. But I guess I'll take it because it's all I asked for and instead I got all of this s--- with it. -
I'm not responding to that because anything I say will make it worse.
Again, I'm done talking. I can't say anything to make this better.
Nothing I say will make you happy.
I'm done with this, it's pointless for me to try. Maybe in a couple days we can try again. Because we're getting nowhere. -
You do whatever you'd like.
NONONO hold up there. I'd like to hear because now I'm pissed that anyone would dare attack you when I only b----ed to a mere three people.
No, some things will. I'm just fed up with most of this.
It's not, see, now you're doing your thing again. If you'd hold on until the end we'd be done and then we can stop arguing and you and Seed can share Twisted. -
Anime for one. And then others just kept their distance from me after the whole thing so it was obvious.
Nothing I can say will, since I don't know what you want to hear. I'm telling you it's not true, I love you. You're my friend and I don't tell you anymore than I tell the others. Hell, I've talked to you over email more than any of them.
My 'thing'? My thing is I'm crying and tired and I miss my f---ing sister and want you to not be mad at me anymore, Dark. -
Anime's a b---- to everyone she doesn't count. And it's natural for GTQers to do that, it probably wasn't directly at you.
I want to hear that everything's going to be okay. I want to hear that you'll confront me if you're upset, and I want to hear everything that's from your side. I don't have to be your number #1 or #2, but it's reassuring to know you sill actually give a real fluxing f--- about me.
Where you start to give up on a talk/fight. That's your "thing". I'm going to be tired for now until I wake up tomorrow. Like I said, I'm sorry about your sister. -
Well it felt like it and no one said otherwise.
Of course I give a f--- about you. I'm just not good at conversation and s---.
Everything will be okay if we just make up.
I'm sorry. I have no skill with words so I give up because I can't fix anything with my speech and I cry and I don't know what to do and I panic.
^ right there is example A of why I give up.
Well I'm sorry.
Why are you sorry? It doesn't matter. It's just an event in my life that has no effect whatsoever on your life. Don't be sorry. -
SINCE WHEN DID I ATTACK YOU? NO DONT PUT ME IN YOUR DRAMA BECAUSE THIS IS ALL STUPID AND POINTLESS AND IDIOTIC.
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