*Le My Thread
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Thread Topic: *Le My Thread
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What is wrong with him?!
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my lonliness is not a state of mind.nor
is it a by-product of any depression.my
lonliness is not a lonliness void of
people.there are many people in my life.
this lonliness i own is not a form of
self-pity that has controlled the will.it
is not a lonliness i wear on my face.
indeed,it is very well hidden.in my deepest
inner most being i am lonely to the point
of being emotionally crippled.i am lonely
to the core of my exsistence and it has
crushed me as a person.my lonliness is
killing my two fondest desires...the
desire to love and the desire to give.
the desire to actually be loved by
another person died several years ago.my
entire being wants to give my love and
devotion to another person.that will
never happen and i have accepted it.there is
no person to love.i was predestined and
preordained to be alone.it is my fate.
it is my lot in life.i have completely
accepted it.the lonliness has defeated
me.it has taken away my desire to love.
all that remains is another night...alone. -
I have not a Fucking clue...
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Sorry for the last posts. My phone was dieing... *sighs* v,v me sad too...
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What has you troubled?
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School D: I don't know but I'm doing horrible now...
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I've painted my walls with lies
to make the world pretty {for me}
confusing kindness for a come on
too many bottles have smuged
the lines of my world and reality
pull the mask away
only to expose another
never the real me
always changing
i've squeezed the last drops from my heart
it's not even enough to bring these words to life
how can i feel this good when i'm so far down
walls painted with lies to make the world prettier
intoxicated eyes blur lines as real and unreal merge
i am the queen of my world {but the peasants are revolting}
candy coated pills hault the constant turning of my wheels
willingly drowning in guilt passed down to me like an old dress
i wear with prideful shame
words get trapped between the masks i wear
a different voice for each persona
being everything to everyone
losing myself in the process
i use to know myself
her and i were great friends
then she realized:
"i can have the attention i crave just by playing dress up."
the downward spiral of shape shifting
never knowing who i would be today
i'm still here under all that make up
under the clothes that call the eyes of others
i just can't help it
when i'm good, i've very good
but when i'm bad....
i'm the best you'll ever {never} have
that mentality gets me in a lot of trouble
it confuses people and myself
am i really the bad girl they dream about
or just the good girl playing another role
either way it's just another hustle
another quick fix to get me through the moment
i've chased this dragon
i've become addicted to myself -
Oh, I know the feel
*Hugs Rose*
You're not alone... -
*hugs* I feel alone. I realized that I have no friends irl :(
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Post!
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She wants to feel like she belongs
Somewhere
She relvels in her solitude
At the same time
She is content in her misery
For the moment
She wishes someone would save her
At the same time
She likes to sit there unaided
Sometimes
She wants someone to sit with her
At the same time
She enjoys confinement in the darkness
Of the night
She wouldn't mind a shed of light
At the same time
She loves to feel a strong arm
Around her
She fights and pushes it away
At the same time
She wants a sense of love
To abound
She despises anyone who gives it
At the same time
She wants eveyone to leave her
Alone
She wants no one to leave her alone
At the same time -
Its about losing control
Of everything you know
And just letting go
Its about losing reason
To just go with your heart
And let all worries depart
Its about losing yourself
To find yourself someplace new
And to be a part of that select few. -
Have you ever felt...
A pressure all around you that stopped you from moving?
That no matter how hard you tried to win you'd always end up losing?
That you were a fallen rose pedal- beautiful but rotting away?
The immense weight on your heart burdening you night and day?
The fear of falling to your death only to find yourself safe in bed?
The horrible regret sink in over what you wish you hadn't said?
Pushed to the point where you completely lost control?
Terrified of facing the truth when all your lies take their toll?
So in love with a person that your heart won't let you forget?
Terrified and confused, waking up in a cold sweat?
That you hurt someone to the point that sorry just wouldn't do?
That maybe it wasn't everyone else, maybe the problem was you?
That you would always fail and there was no point in trying?
That everyone was content and you were always crying?
That everyone was miserable and you were to blame?
Desperate for change in a world that stays the same?
So right then have someone prove you wrong?
So weak inside then pretending to be strong?
Suicidal? Truly believing that death would end you pain.
The buildup of tears in your eyes ready to pour like rain?
The sensations that awaken you from your life as a wooden doll?
I often wonder with the way you treat me... do you feel at all? -
OMG YOU'RE EXPERIENCE :D *glomples*
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*Is glomped, Glomps back*
YEAH!!!! XD
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